past,present,future.

Everyone have their own way of showing that they care.
and me,i don't really know how to show it.
maybe that is why people keep walking away from my life.
and some.i walk away from their life.
i believe its for our own good.
but i shall never forget you.never will.
u've been part of my life and always will.
take good care of yourself.i know u would.
if u need me.i wouldn't go away :)

been going through my lil brother blog.
he has grown up.
from the little kid who knows nothing
becoming a man who obviously better than me.
brother rivalry eh? always try to be better than each other.
it's normal.i used to trying so hard to be better than my lil brother.
but now i just can't help but trying to assist him in everything.
i wish i could.but it seems he's way better than me.
i'm happy to know that he is fine.

time do pass by quickly.and sometime too quick to be true.
i still remember back when we were kids.
taking turn to play digimon world on the playstation.
and wake each other when their turn is up next.
we used to be very close to each other.
laugh and do things together.
but as we grew older.
we spend more time with laptop or handphone,
it's sad really.
to be at home but doing things alone,
i can't stop thinking of my mum.
what did she do everyday.herm.
maybe that is why i love to spend my time in kedah.
spend time together.doing anything.
playing kites,football,gardening.
or just chat.things that i hardly do at home.
i wish i could take it all away.
all those electronic devices.
and just sit in the living room.
with all my family members.
watching television together.
i just miss my family.really do.

i talked to uzma through fb that night.
who is uzma?well,shes one of my friends when i first moved to bangi.
we're quite close that time,well,time do it's part.
she's living her life and me living mine.
i asked her how her life was.
and i can't believe what she have become.
well,it is just because it is different from what i expected.
something about her that doesn't change is,
shes nice.although is like years since i talk to her.
i can pretty much talk to her like we used to.

all those chatting bout the past with uzma,
remind me of something else,
well,my ex.my one and only ex.
her life been great i guess.and found someone,which is good for her.
hopefully that guy treat her the way she deserved.
she is a very nice girl.and i tear her heart apart.
but i can't keep lying to myself.bout my feeling.
sorry :|

i met with new people,some interest me.
but not that i would like to die for.
i wish i met someone i would die for.
but can't find any.
my heart well,maybe just love proof as in.
not falling for anyone.
or it just that i wouldn't fall for anyone.
cause my time is near.
maybe it is just time to say goodbye.
and ask forgiveness to everyone i met and knew.

i've been trying to look at life at different perspective.
and i realize that we,
should not hate someone just because he done something that we don't like.
try put yourself in his shoe.what would you do?
empathy i guess?trying to be in someone else situation.
you never know the truth until you get his side of the story.
if you don't get along with someone.
don't hate him because he is different.
just go away and respect him for the way he is.
even if he annoys u by just doing nothing.

the world is just big.
life is not all about love.
life is not all about stuff.
life is not all about you.
life is nothing.
life is everything.